Sweet Potato Tortilla Chips

And so the story continues... I was warped back into my old blog when I was trying to scavenge pictures from a ski trip I took two years ago, but ended up looking at all the pictures I took and posts I had written when I was in highschool. God, I know I repeat this time and time again, but it is really WEIRD to be able to capture my highschool experience via the internet. It's truly astonishing, mildly uncomfortable, and extremely embarrassing to review the past three/four years of my life with the click of a button. I'm entirely grateful for having documented those years, because it reminds me of who I am, what I want to do, and where I come from. Though many of my blogs were about being frustrated, confused, or angry, I whole heatedly embrace the fact that: yes, I do struggle and I do fight. I remember feeling really angsty, and also feeling really guilty about being upset. I wasn't comfortable in my skin, so I let out my creative rhythm online and it helped me gather my thoughts into color and text. Ah, what complex creatures we humans are.

Anyways, my life has been pretty good. I'm doing well in my classes so far. I have a wonderful boyfriend who is really wonderful to me. I really can't complain. Besides the fact that I am procrastinating and I really should be studying electrochemistry.

This is a picture of me at the library not studying.

San Cisco in San Francisco

Really pumped to see San Cisco and get my A.W.K.W.A.R.D groove on!

Thoughts Revisited

My priorities just a few hours ago was to quickly come home to by puppy and snuggle, then watch Jepordy with Dylan. But now that today is soon coming to to an end (oh shit I just looked at the clock and today IS "tomorrow"), I will need to crack the whip this weekend and hit the books. I want thermochem to be my B.I.T.C.H!! Excuse my language. Today we were learning about Schrodinger's equation and we were taught that it was a diffential equation, but the fact that I understood what my profrosser was trying to explain to us made me extremly trilled. It's nice to know that you know, you know? Ok, nevermind. Point being, tomorrow. S.F State, library, tea, zoning out, take home quiz, online homework, math, more thermo, more homework. It's going to be a fun day!

And a little doodle I drew in class

Coca Cola

A Year Later..

I'll admit, I am a traitor. I left blogger for tumblr. I was trapped. The funny memes and C.H.I.C model p1xs really warped me in. However, I am back on blogger because I really miss W.R.I.T.I.N.G. I was looking back at my older posts just a few minutes ago and remembered what it was like to tell my blog what I have been up to. For a while I was quite turned off by the lack of privacy blogging "provides" (i.e, online blogs aren't exactly created for personal privacy), but it is a very refreshing thing that I can look back to. I know the photos won't fall out, the pages won't rip off, and most of all- it'll always be there when I want to look at it. So some of the stuff that I have been up to consist of my boyfriend of now 6 months. Ok, that means that I haven't been on blogger for at least a minimum of 6 months. We met in the library when we started to talk about puppies and chemistry class. Ever since then, we've been pretty tight. I really like him. He's a pretty cool guy.

The Dharma

The amount of stuff that goes through my teenage mind is often unbearable. I'll have this great idea of who I am, or who I think I am because pfsh... I'm 17 of course I know the ways of the world. But then a small thought crosses my mind and triggers a flood of outside voices telling me this and that about myself. What is really strange to think about is that those outside voices are me. They are my doubts. They are the barriers and limits that I set for myself that often tell me that I can't do something or that I don't have the capacity to do X. And many times I give in to these voices, but I am slowly learning to realize that these voices are only my own devil. There have been a couple words that have been on my mind lately that have been helping me get through my busy school schedule. Order out of chaos + The eye of the storm Balance. It's balance that I really need in my life right now and it sure as heck is balance I'm going to find one way or another. My mind feels really mucky and clogged. I feel like I need something rejuvenating, so I can get back and focused on my work again. This weekend I hope to start running again and doing Bikram Yoga. Ah, so stoked to start sweating again. Geez, I have a tendency to go off on total tangents at midnight when I'm simultaneously trying to study, watch television, and troll through blogs. I'm a little sick so I moved my station (tea and laptop) over to the kitchen to dig up some Advil and hopefully get away from that funny asshole named Jimmy Kimmel.

A doodle I made of some pretty girl.

Can't Take It, But Will Take It

Sometimes its really fucking hard trying to force myself to think that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes I just want to stop inside the tunnel and go the fuck back, because I know that there is an easy way out. The tunnel sucks. It's dark, its mucky, its lonely, and its miserable. Sometimes I want to stop and have a cigarette break. Fuck I hate cigarettes.

Mushy Like Mashed Potatoes

Oh boy, it has been a while.. The last three weeks I have been doing a lot of school related things, dreaming, studying, more dreaming. It's midnight and I really should be going to sleep because I have four classes tomorrow back to back and a pretty big Chemistry test that will make or break my current grade in that class. I spent a fair amount of time today studying the formulas for polyatomic ions and transition elements so hopefully tomorrow's exam will be a little less scary. I'm very grateful to have a study buddy who is smart and willing to make jokes at inappropriate moments. You know who you are.

Coffee Timeline

People Iscolating Nature with the "Real World"

The disconnect between humans and animals really is upsetting. And I'm not even talking about wild animals either, but our favorite (or, most of our favorite) potty trained, ball lovin, four legged fuzzy creatures. I was thirsty earlier today and I wanted to get a cup of tapioca, so I bring my dog along with me so she could get some walking done. And as I'm walking her, at least 3 or 4 incidents occurred when my dog was doing nothing but sniffing strangers and wanting to say hi- and that person either SLAPS her away or gives ME a dirty look for not holding my dog back. Not to mention that every time I see someone become frantic or even begin to back away when my dog sniffs them; I always assure them that my dog is harmless and doesn't bite. But no. Certain human beings are so entrapped in their stupid idea of what the world is that they forget that there are other living things on this planet that eat, breath, sleep, and have emotions just like us.

I am just utterly appalled, disgusted and quite frankly very angered by people right now. And I understand that I should take into consideration why certain people are the way they are, and I have. I just can't find it in my heart at the moment to give a crap about your pathetic fear of an animal that has been, literally, bred by humans for a couple hundred of centuries now to be the one creature living on this Earth that was born to love and be loved by us.